The Secrets Trilogy: Part 1 - Constant Fear


Chapter 19

Throughout the night, Kevin went through a barrage of mixed emotions while he watched Abigail sleep. He felt anger, sympathy and grief throughout the course of the night. First he was angry with Frank for screwing with her life like he did. It would have been easier to tell Abigail that he wanted a divorce as opposed to framing her with murder. But Frank obviously had problems and the chances that any one would figure out why he did it was slim.

Sympathy followed. She had been through so much. He prayed that his love and support would help her make it through it all. Abigail had been right all along. The only way Kevin could help was to assure Abigail that he still loved her and he would remain by her side. Why did he feel so helpless?

Grief was the final emotion to hit Kevin. He had come to the realization that he had lost part of Abigail. In man ways she would still be the same person he had fallen in love with, but now that she had the option to go back to her old life, he had no idea what she would want to do. Would she want to go back to her life as Alison Summers or move forward with her life as Abigail Philips? Kevin was pretty sure Abigail wouldn’t want to go back to her old life simply because it didn’t exist anymore. But he feared that if it were really something she wanted, she would find a way. This would either be the beginning or the end.

When Abigail woke up the following morning she was seeing things a lot clearer. She smiled when she saw Kevin’s sleeping figure in the chair. He would have a sore neck for sure when he woke up. She wondered how much sleep he had gotten because he looked exhausted. Then it was almost as if Kevin had a sixth sense, he woke up and smiled when he saw Abigail’s smiling face.

“Hey, how are you feeling this morning?” Kevin asked as he stood up and stretched, groaning when his muscles ached from sleeping in the chair.

“Much better. How about you? It doesn’t look like you got too much sleep last night.” Abigail said, more concerned about Kevin than her self. He had been through just as much as she had the day before.

“Just a few hours I think. I took the opportunity to do a lot of thinking.” Kevin said as he sat down and kissed Abigail on the cheek.

“Yeah, I guess a lot happened yesterday eh. Are you ok?” Abigail asked, concerned that Kevin’s feelings had changed throughout the night.

“I won’t lie and tell you that I’m great, but I’m dealing with it all.” Kevin answered honestly.

“Do you want to talk about it? It might help both of us if we talked about how we were feeling.” Abigail said.

“Well, there is one thing weighing on my mind Abi. Now that you don’t have to hide, do you have any idea what you’re going to do? I’m worried that you will want to go back to your old life.” Kevin said. It was time to face reality.

Abigail hadn’t even considered going back to Alison Summer’s life. That part of her life felt so close, yet was so far away. There was no reason for her to return to her life as Alison Summers. “There’s nothing for me to go back to Kevin. So if it’s all right with you, I think I’ll stay right here with you.” Abigail said, hoping that would ease the tension she detected.

“I don’t expect you to make a decision right away.” Kevin said, worried that Abigail wasn’t thoroughly thinking about what she wanted to do.

“I don’t need to take any time to think about it Kevin. I have everything that I need right here. I love you Kevin and I can’t imagine what my life would be like without you. Please believe me when I say that. I want to forget about Alison Summers and move forward as Abigail Phillips. You’ve been extremely supportive over the past couple of months that I’d be insane to walk away from what we have.” Abigail said as she reached out and gently caressed Kevin’s cheek. She did love him and she couldn’t think about anywhere else she would rather be.

“I was so worried that you’d want to go back to your own life.” Kevin said as his eyes filled with tears. The pent up stress and emotions hit him all at once. He had no idea how afraid he really was of loosing Abigail, until he heard her confirm that she was staying.

“Kevin, you know everything that I went through. Why would I want to go back to that?” Abigail asked.

“I don’t know. I guess I had a little too much time to think last night and I got carried away.” Kevin said.

“To be honest with you Kevin, I had come to love my life here in Orlando. The only thing I didn’t like was the fact that I was lying to you and everyone else in my life. All the nightmares I was having was a result of my fear that you would find out about my past in the wrong way. I had no idea the nightmares would become reality.” Abigail said.

“I’m sorry for all the times I gave you a hard time Abi. Never in a million years would I have guessed what you really went through. I totally understand now why you couldn’t say anything.” Kevin said, trying to make up for all the times he had made Abigail feel guilty.

“You had every right to be upset Kevin. To you it just looked like I wouldn’t trust you. You had no way of knowing the magnitude of it all.” Abigail said as she squeezed Kevin’s hand.

“Well enough about that. I’m going to go find the doctor and find out when we can get you out of this place.” Kevin said. As he walked out of the room, someone stopped him.

“Hi Kevin, I know you don’t know me. But my name is Julia and I’m a good friend of Abigail’s. Because I’m not immediate family, they won’t let me in to see her or tell me how she is. Please tell me she’s all right.” Julia said on the verge of tears.

“Abigail talks about you all the time. I’m just about to go find her doctor, so go ahead in and find out for yourself. If they give you a problem tell them to talk to me. We’re the only family Abigail has right now and I think it’s important that we all be there for her.” Kevin said.

Julia quietly crept into the room and nearly lost it when she saw Abigail’s sleeping figure in the bed.

Abigail heard the door open again and she said, “So when am I getting out of here?” When she looked up she saw a trembling Julia standing by her bed.

“Julia honey, it is so good to see you.” Abigail said as she reached up and gave her friend a hug.

“I came as soon as I heard sweetie. How are you?” Julia asked, as she searched for any signs that Abigail had been hurt.

“I’m fine. I was just in a little shock last night, so they kept me over night for observation.” Abigail said as she tried to convince her friend that she was going to be fine.

“What in the hell happened last night? There aren’t any details surfacing other than the fact that you had been kidnapped but found a short while later.” Julia said. She hadn’t heard about the news until several people at work approached her to see if she knew anything more. It was at that time that she read the newspaper article and rushed over to the hospital.

“It turns out that Frank was never dead. He faked his murder and framed it on me all because he wanted me out of his life.” Abigail said, shivering as she said it. It would take a long time before she got over what Frank had done that to her.

“So it was Frank that kidnapped you last night?” Julia said in disbelief.

“Yeah. He didn’t take me far. He pulled me into a closet at the arena. I am so grateful that Kevin acted so quickly because I think Frank would have seriously killed me this time. He wanted me out of his life for good.” Abigail said as she started to become terrified again.

“From what I heard, Kevin had every door and exit from the parking lot blocked. Every car was being checked that left the arena last night. I wouldn’t put it past him to stop every car, plane and train that left this city if it came down to that.” Julia said.

“Did he really do that?” Abigail asked. She was unaware of everything Kevin had done to ensure that she was found.

“Said so in the paper this morning. God you must have been terrified.” Julia said.

“You know I was more worried about Kevin. I knew he would be freaking.” Abigail said.

“Well just thank god you’re all right. How is Kevin handling everything?” Julia asked.

“I think he’s taking it all pretty good. We had a good talk this morning and he knows where I stand, so I think he’ll be ok. I just don’t know what I’m going to do when he leaves after tonight’s show. I don’t know if I can be apart from him right now.” Abigail said.

“You don’t actually think Kevin will leave you alone do you?” Julia asked. She hoped that Kevin planned on taking Abigail on the road with him at least temporarily until she was more stable emotionally. She thought Abigail was handling it pretty well at the moment, but the emotional and psychological effects would follow later and she felt that Abigail needed to be with Kevin when all of that hit.

“I don’t know, he hasn’t said anything to me. I’m not sure what he’s thinking so I don’t just want to bring it up.” Abigail said. After a brief pause she said, “I guess we still have a lot to talk about.”

Julia made a note to talk to Kevin about it. If Abigail wouldn’t bring it up, she sure as hell would. As much as she would miss having Abigail around if she went with Kevin, she knew that was the best place for her. Kevin’s love could quite possibly be the best medicine.

 

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