The Secrets Trilogy: Part 1 - Constant Fear


Chapter 31

Kevin tried to sleep on the plane the following morning without any success. He had spent all night in Abigail’s room while she slept. Due to the sedative they gave her, she didn’t stir throughout the night at all and when she finally did wake up nothing had changed.

For a few minutes, while Abigail tried to wake up, it seemed like she had come around, but as soon as the details from the day before flooded back, she tensed up and asked Kevin to leave again. Kevin reminded Abigail that he loved her and would always be there for her and he informed her that he was going back on tour to give her the space she needed, and all she needed to do was call and he would return to her side without hesitation.

As soon as Kevin left the room, Abigail broke down in tears. She hated hurting Kevin like she was, but she thought he would be better off in the long run if she was out if his life. In reality, she was the one that kept hurting Kevin. Maybe if Frank believed that her and Kevin were no longer together he might leave her alone. But as long as Frank was alive, she was sure she would never be able to rest.

Later that morning, Abigail sat across from Dr. Steep in his office. He was trying to convince her to talk about the events of the last twenty-four hours without any success. She couldn’t let anyone know what she was up to. She felt the need to deal with this on her own. She was positive that Dr. Steep would never go alone with her plan if he were aware of what she was doing. No, she had to keep it to herself.

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A few hours later, Kevin arrived at the venue feeling emotionally and physically exhausted. He wasn’t sure he was going to make it through the show that night, but was determined to fulfill his responsibilities. Nick was the first person to spot Kevin and he tipped the rest of the guys off. Before he knew it he was surrounded while everyone talked simultaneously.

“Calm down guys. Give him some space. This can’t be easy for him.” Brian said. He could tell that his cousin was exhausted and didn’t really want to be there.

“Thanks for being so concerned guys. If you don’t mind, I’m going to go lie down for a while. I haven’t slept since I left yesterday.” Kevin said as he headed towards his bus. Maybe a nap would refresh him a little and enable him to make it through the show.

Fortunately, sleep came easily as Kevin settled into his bunk, but it didn’t last long. Kevin woke up startled after having a disturbing nightmare. He buried his head in the pillow as he recollected the details of the nightmare. He now had some idea how Abigail felt when she was woken up from a nightmare. He never imagined that he would crave Abigail’s touch to calm him. He was supposed to be the strong one in the relationship, but the fear that he had lost Abigail had left him feeling extremely vulnerable. He decided to just get up and do his best to try and make it through the next couple of hours. Then they would be on the road again and he could hide out in his bunk. It was the only private place on the bus.

Kevin went through the motions for the next couple of hours. As he got dressed and sat through hair and make-up, the other guys tried to lighten his mood, but he wasn’t interested in talking or laughing. His heart ached and at the moment he resented the fact that he had to go up on stage and pretend that nothing was wrong. All he really wanted was to have Abigail back in some capacity. He could handle the separation when he knew she still needed him, but her words and actions had left him feeling hollow and alone.

While he was onstage, he did his best to focus on the music and choreography. There were several signs scattered throughout the audience wishing him and Abigail well. He appreciated the support he got from the fans, but if they only knew what was really going on. Kevin missed a few cues and screwed up some of the choreography, but couldn’t really care less.

As soon as the show as over, Kevin made his way out to his bus. Carlos escorted him there and told him he’d be back in about half an hour when the buses were scheduled to depart. As tired as he was, he didn’t feel like going to sleep right away., so he popped in a video game and let himself get lost in the game for a while. Any relief from his current situation was welcome. After approximately fifteen minutes, Kevin heard someone get onto the bus and he just assumed it was Carlos and went on playing his game. A few minutes later the bus started to move and he thought it was odd that Carlos didn’t come back to ensure he was ready to leave like he always did. He paused his game and made his way to the front of the bus. When he didn’t see Carlos, he rushed to the front of the bus and said, “Where the hell is Peter?”

“Oh, was that his name? It’s a shame I had to kill him.” The man said in a flat tone.

“Who in the hell are you?” Kevin asked, fearing that he all ready knew the answer.

“You’re a smart man Kevin. I think you can figure it out for yourself.” The man said as he broke through a barrier and turned off of the venue’s property. Frank moved so quickly, that venue security didn’t know what hit them.

 “Abigail isn’t with me.” Kevin said as he sat down. His weak legs could no longer support his weight. It was going to be a long night.

“I know that. You’ve got her locked up in the loony bin somewhere, right where she belongs.” Frank said.

“Don’t you dare talk about her like that! It’s because of your sick mind that Abigail is suffering.” Kevin exploded in anger. He couldn’t believe that the asshole seriously believed that Abigail was crazy.

“I don’t think you’re in any position to tell me what to say or do Kevin. I’m the one that’s in control of this situation.” Frank said.

“You all ready know that Abigail is not with me, so what do you want from me?” Kevin asked.

“Will you please stop calling her Abigail? Her name is Alison and you’re going to take me to her. I’m sure you have the authority to discharge her, so I want you to bring her to me.” Frank said.

“Over my dead body.” Kevin said angrily.

“Don’t tempt me Kevin.” Frank said.

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“How in the fuck can someone just drive away with a bus without anyone noticing?” Brian said in a panic.

“Calm down Brian. Getting all upset isn’t going to help the situation.” Howie said, trying to mediate the situation.

“How am I supposed to calm down? He’s been kidnapped for crying out loud.” Brian said, barely able to get the last few words out.

“You heard what the police said. It’s going to be difficult to miss a bus. They’ll be doing their best to ensure that Kevin is found.” Howie said, trying to remain optimistic. He was the only one that hadn’t lashed out or become extremely quiet since they heard the news about Kevin’s disappearance. Someone needed to try and keep everyone united in Kevin’s presence.

“Who wants to call Abigail?” AJ asked quietly. They all knew she needed to be notified.

“Shit, it ain’t going to be easy telling her this.” Brian said, as he thought about how distraught Abigail would be upon finding out this news.

“Does anyone even know where she is staying or her doctor’s number?” Howie asked.

“Nope. Kevin wasn’t telling anyone where Abigail was staying. For her own safety I guess.” Brian replied.

“I’m sure the police will be contacting the detective in charge of Abigail’s case in Florida. Maybe they’ll know how to get in touch with her.” Howie said.

“I hope you’re right.” Brian said.

 

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